Crack Head

I'm tired of always being the level-headed do the right thing girl. It is exhausting and time consuming considering everyone else's feelings and the impact my actions have on them. Fuck that do unto others shit...Whateva! I do what I want!

Psyche! I know I can't live that way. But I wish I could. Damn that moral upbringing and conscience! I'd never sleep at night if I did everything I wanted without consideration of others and I probably wouldn't have any friends.

But I've got a dilemma. I have a situation in which doing the "right" thing by moral standards will cause me a lot of pain and heartache. I can do the "wrong" thing and get some immediate gratification and satisfaction - at least for now - and cause some other people some pain indirectly. I know all of you are screaming - look at the long term - remember your site seeing life problem! You know which option you should pick! Do the "right" thing. Conrad is probably saying "do the wrong thing so you've got something to blog about and I can live vicariously through your drama!"

Maybe I'll compromise and the "wrong" thing just an intsy weensy bit and then do the "right" thing. Yes - this does sound like I have an addiction (just a little bit more...one more time), hence the title of this blog. Don't worry kids - I'm not addicted to drugs. Hugs not drugs (Thanks for that Conrad) but unfortunately that is part of my problem.